He is the reason why all the doors are closed

n I made a poem abot my feeling then I shared on FB but no one understand who it is for.

WhenHey Buddies,

Today I`mma gonna share about  the guy who I admire.

Actually at the first time I saw him in my bro_friend`s house I just ignored him. I didnt pay attention so much to him and the friends other who are m bro_friend`s friend. Ehmm, but we had a little conversation just a lil bit about english translator. Really, it`d nothing special.

When I got home I checked my FB as usual, but then I found his account. I dunno what I was thinking, I added him as m friend. Well soon he confirmed. Eventually we “comment – comment “ had a online conversation. It`s good at first. HAHAHA

But still, no feeling. Just so so.

Oia, at that time I was busy on my preparing for Entrance test for STAN. I had so many stuff about STAN including the brochure of STAN.

Well, I was shicked when I saw his name in that brochure which tells about the people who passed the entrance test of STAN on 2008.

As I know that he is in IPDN but he passed STAN. How smart he is.

Then, few days after we have a gather breal fast in Palladium with the others. We talk so much about schools and any else.

Oia, then since at the time I begin admiring him so much. I told him that he is Vidi Aldiano like. HAHAHAHA, and you know what, Buddies? He said yes. Cause many of his friend said so. He asked what thing make them alike. I said his eyebrow.

We laughed together.

After that day, he often liked my status on FB and so did I. Just because I agreedbout he said and may be he did so.

We discussed about school, education online.

Till I felt so bored preparing my next school after Senior High School, he gave me advice. I was so happy.

Also I asked his opinion to make essay for entering SSE. He told me about everything.  What a great friend, he is. Alhamdulillah I passed the test and I thanked him. Though he had lil bit angry cause I didnt tell him about my going to Palembang  to have the test. I didnt care :D HAHAHAHAHA

I texted him and he replied “ I`m sure from the first , impossible if Ika cannot pass the test. Congratulation ya J “(in bahasa). I just thought that how come he can be so sure like that.

Well, from that time I`mma just feel that he is a good guy.

Ramadhan 2010, as I knew he was in IPDN Makassar , friend of him call me. He talked so much about  what he does in IPDN, how he acts include his feeling.

Wait ! Feeling ??? means ?

His love, he said. I was woder who she is ? she said me. Impossible. How can it be. I`mma just nothing compare to him. He said that he doesnt want to show his love up. Just make it slow.

Is that true ?

The he got Medan he texted me, and I was so happy.

We meet again directly not through FB or message. We attended a program about memorizing holy Quran held by USU. He invited me. I was interest  that program. Of course I was so happy at that day.

Oia, he calls me “Ikan”  whenever text me. HAHAHAHA doesnt make sense, dontcha ?

I swear I was so Happy. Then we planned to have a gather break fast but my bro_friend didnt want. You know buddies, if I want to go with him means I have to go with my bro_friend because they friend and we just thought that it`s impossible if only both of us (he and I) have gather break fast.

Finally, we had no gather break fast. So sad !

Well, after Ramadhan we have to go to the town we will study, I go to Jakarta and He go to Makassar. We have the same flight, and da but different time flight. It is only 30 minutes after his flight . We planned to meet in Soekarno Hatta airport.

Also at the day he asked whether I`ve known where I`ve to go in Jakarta, I meant my boarding house and my campus. I said I dont know yet. He was shocked. HAHAHAHAHA

Just be calm, I ca handle it.

Well, I`d just arrive in Jakarta and wanna meet him, but unlucky he has gone to makassar.

Alright then, never mind.

We have no talk chat or conversation untill the end of 2010 when I was in Yogyakarta, and he was in Medan. He texted me. But at that time I used my friend`s cellphone so I have no contact. Then I got a message, I thought it`s from my senior in Senior High School (female), asked me where I am. Then I said “I`m in Jogja, Darling”(in Bahasa). Well, no reply till I changed my phone into mine and I`ve just known that the message come from him. How Ashamed was I at that time.  Soon, I retexted him, and explained everything. Really fool !

You know, how can I admire him so much and then fall in love with him, because he is good muslim. I`mma just realized that he is the real ikhwan. Well how lucky am I to know him. I learn so much from him and try to be better as a muslimah.

Well, in the morning when I had a Semester Final exam, he texted me and asked when I graduate. I`s shocked and so happy and be spiritful for the exam. HAHAHAHA

I dunno how I feel, but I think I love him even we meet very very rarely, once a year.

But, the think that me so ashamed right now is because my bro_friend told him my feeling about him. I couldnt imagine what happened at the time. My bro_friend said that he said my feelin aint the right time so I must find the right one and let the time decide J

PASRAH

That`s the word and try to apology for the silly feeling, then no answer. Untill now.

I just pray to God, if it is me, we`ll gather.

Amin

LOVE WILL FIND THE RIGHT MOMENT TO BE ADMITTED