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Hey Buddies,

Today I am happy. Two days ago, me and my family (red : SSE family) just held a routine agenda called fade to white. A set of agendas were so sophisticated to enjoy. This was also the first agenda that attandence by the whole cohort of scholars in SSE. Reading holy Quran by Muhammad Ramli and translating by Nurul Azkia was so awesome. The one that made me crying was the performance from SCC (SSE Christian Club), they sang Damai Bersama Mu by Chrisye. Actually I requested  this song to them to be sang. Eventhough we have different belive but we still live in peace. Salute for us. Saman dance and drama also were amazing. It was good entertainment.

One thing  that surprise me is one of my friend. I am happy to see her. I think, not only me feel that, but also all my friends too. Rahma Chintia Rezky is my classmate since the first year of my study at SSE. She is a happy girl and funny. Everything done with her were crazy. That is why we love her. Two days ago, she surprise us by wearing hijjab. It was not like usual she does. So happy we welcome her doing that. We suggest her to wear hijjab everyday. At first we just assumed that she wore hijjab just because of Fade to white. Big surprise, today she wore hijjan again. Honestly, she looks so pretty. I am happy to see her. When I asked her whether she will commit to wear hijjab, and she said yes. Alhamdulillah. I love it. I hope there will be more friends do the same like her.

God always has the way 

This is for You, Good Guy :)

Berdebar rasa di dada setiap kau tatap mataku
Apakah arti pandangan itu menunjukkan hasratmu
Sungguh aku telah tergoda saat kau dekat denganku
Hanya kau yang membuatku begini
Melepas panah asmara

Reff:
Sudah katakan cinta sudah kubilang sayang
Namun kau hanya diam tersenyum kepadaku
Kau buat aku bimbang kau buat aku gelisah
Ingin rasanya kau jadi milikku

Ku akan setia menunggu satu kata yang terucap
Dari isi hati sanubarimu yang membuatku bahagia

Sungguh aku telah tergoda saat kau dekat denganku
Hanya kau yang membuatku begini
Melepas panah asmara

Back to Reff:

Panah asmara panah asmara panah asmara

Back to Reff:
Kau buat aku bimbang kau buat aku gelisah
Ingin rasanya kau jadi milikku
Kau buat aku bimbang kau buat aku gelisah
Ingin rasanya kau jadi milikku

Panah asmara panah asmara panah asmara

Confusing, Damn

Hello Buddies !

Hell-o U, Damn

Well this is my second post in Jakarta after Mudik Lebaran. Feel the same like I did in Medan, Galau. This is waht I hate from falling in love or keeping this love. As I told you in the previous post, I am confuse about the ones who I love, he or he ? ahahhahaha or they love me not and I love none.

But there is something strange that I feel. Well do you know the fuckin flirty man I told you ? yes He is. I dunno why I `mma just still have a lil bit feelin of him. Only a LIL BIT even try to ERASE it. The way is love the good guy. I hope he is the true man Amiinnnn. Well back to the point wanna share. For some times I just share about my love to him ( fuckin flirty man). But the more I shared the more he ignores me. What the H ? but if I share another thing  such lecture and so on he responses me. What is this ? this is what ? hmmmm

Or is this my feeling only ?

If I have a honesty measurement, I just want to know what is in his mind now ? why he ignores me whenever shared about love and the man I love.

Hey you Damn fuckin flirty man ! I know you, you will never turn yours to me, so just help me maintain my feeling to him and respon my sharing please. Or you just say the truth. But FYI I`mma trying to build this love only for the Kind Awesome Lovable Interesting guy. Still I respect you.

Hey Buddies, do you ever feel like me ? share me plese the ay solve it J

However, I just love

Kind Awesome Lovable Interesting guy

Greatest Eid Mubarak

Hey Buddies..

You hate our minister ? yeah I hate because they canceled Eid Mubarak  for one day. Oh my Gosh meaning that my time to enjoy Eid mubarak will be decreased. Aaaaaaaaaaarrgggghhh.  You know my mom actually already prepared Lontong, rendang, sayur mayur, fresh flower. What I`ve to do to all stuff ??? crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy

I watched sidang itsbat.  I was nervous. I hope Eid Mubarak will be on Tuesday but it was Wednesday. Hiks hiks hiks L

Everything has good and bad side.

Above is the bad and now I`mma gonna tell you the good ones.

I was so happy celebrate Eid Mubarak this year . why ?

First is

This my first time to do “sungkem” appropriately with my parents and brother. I did want to do this since I was in Junior high school but it couldnt.

Second is

I have the same dress like my mom, and my bro has the same with my father. Yeyeyeyeyeyeye

Then let me sing “ baju baru  Alhamdulillaaaahhhhhh....” hehehhe

Third is

My family said I look skinnier than last year and also look taller. Meaning what ? I look beautiful right ? ahahahahaha

Fourth is

Everything make me happy laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh :D

But it`s only for one day cause the day after I have to prepare packing my lugage for going back to Jakarta. Actually I have finished everything in the morning and planned to go to movie with my bradah aka Muammar Irzan, but it was cancelled. It was caused by Reza Arba Lubis. We wait for him until noon. Text retext and no answer until at 2 pm we knew he was in Tebing Tinggi.

Huaaaaaaaaaaaa

WHY DIDNT  YOU JUST TELL US EARLIER ??????  then let`s make new plan.

He texted me and invite to have midnight movie. Absolutely I couldn`t. Then my last day in Medan was lil bit mess up, but still I judge him make this screw.

In the midnight he offered me to take me to the airport. But I couldnt cause my parents would do. Well I asked him to come to the airport only.

2nd Sept 2011

at 8 o`clock I checked in and finished all the stuff. Then the time is waiting to come then I need to board. I waited for Reza till 9.15 am, cause he said he wanna come. 9.15 meant thet I have to board. Then I called him and he said he was outside airport and asked me to come there. Well after kissed and hugged my fam, I came to him. And the thing make me surprised was he came with ice cream. It has been one year no ice cream from him. Fuihh L well it was pretty good. But itiwas so much ice cream to finished by myself I told him and he said actually we will finished it cause He has to stick. Yeah, I think it should be right but sill it cannot.  Well it was 9.30 and it`s time to go. Shaked and then said good bye, then he said not to be worry cause he will flight to Bandung soon and we can meet again.  Dont you think it was like in sinetron. Aghh I dont like it actually.

Well it is about Eid Mubaak and two days after. Then I back to Jakarta with the whole stuff here. 

I dreamed Jojo

Hey Buddies .

Can you imagine how will you feel when you have a snake with you everyday and everytime. You know, actually I like snake but I dont like it`s skin. HIHIHIHIHI

Couple days ago I dreamed having  pet and it was a snake, green snake exactly. At the time it was so funny. I called it Jojo. Hahaha. It was freak ha ? yeah it was.

Buddies I just remember when ma mom told me about the meaning of rdreaming snake. It means all about love specially for spouse. Spouse that exist for us if the snake bite us. But in my dream the snake was kind and cute. You I conclude that the dream means that I already get the spouse but it needs to wait untill he right time to be published. May be after I finished my S1. Amin

One name refres to the spouse is him, the good guy. He Buddies I love him J

Jojo I`ll keep you in my heart :* 

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Fuckin` fella`s flirty !

Hey Buddies

it would be about my first love that has been waiting for almost 4 years but it gets nothing and about to be erased and burnt. I know you know who. Honestly when I write this I`mma about to cry but I try to make my self sure that he is not the right one. God has meet me to the one who admire. Actually I`mma just confuse who I love I mean I do love. Now, what I know from myself is he loves me not. It is only me who is hoping a love from a fella and a guy which is actually never come to me. I am just a foolish, silly, freaky, ugly, overconfidence girl. No one cares. I am just a girl who loves nothing. Can you imagine how sad I feel right now.

This fella is actually my first love. I have written many things about this, poem birthday sayer, and the silly thing I have done is even I love him but when he asked me te get him somebody to love, I did. I can not imagine how ridiculuos I am. How foolis I am, how stupid I am.

Hey Buddies, for this session please you just ignore about my feeling to the good guy right now, I am just telling you about my regret for my first love. Why I want to share about this actually because yesterday I met him. We had chit chat in WARKOP with another fellas, but still our friends.

No hello just a lil crush at our table and then he was busy on his cellphone. And suddenly, flrty flirty ! awhhhhhhhhhh !!!

It is just like he mocked on me and for severl times he gave hearts to me by his hand. I was wondering it is just true ? he gives heart.  Think for a couple time, and I said it is impossible. I know him he loves me not. How foolish I am. I hate on me.

May he thinks I am just a bubble gum or just a game boy whenever I am not useful for him then let he throw me away and take me back whenever he needs. I hate myself.

I just need somebody to love.

Sorry but now I can handle myself for figuring out my love is.

Buddies, again It is a silly thing of mine try to love but no one loves.

I love but no one loves